This isn't me

Oh but I wish it was.

I wish I was honest. But not to a fault. I'd be wise enough to know when to shut up when it deems necessary.

I just wish I could cry whenever I feel upset or frustrated, but the tears don't come and so the tension stays, and what a goddamn shame that is.

I wish I wasn't so goddamn shallow. And it's quite funny actually, because I look like a deformed fucking mutant yet I have the audacity to whine and complain about the looks of other people, like it even matters to me!? Somebody should kill me, because I can't take how I am.

I wish I wasn't so fucking critical. But we're all human right? We all do it. But that's just me pointing fingers at the whole world, and its actions along with mine. Nobody should be fucking critical. For fucks sake man. I don't know why I tried to justify it through me blaming the world, but it's still immoral and wrong. Just don't judge.

If a person doesn't want to show their face online and in turn they remain anonymous, let them! Don't bash them and say they're doing it to "look cool" or they're "insecure" and if they are doing it for those things, great! Like who fucking gives a shit!? Just let them be free to do whatever the fuck they please and don't judge too harsh. Or just don't judge at all man. Just don't. It's cruel. Cruelty is coming out of your mouth every time you criticize.

I wish words didn't get to me. But they do. Oh, how they do.