Ah, a new year. A new year of me living in misery. Fuck, I need music or something. Sure, I feel emotional pain every day, primarily because of one of my biggest flaws. Envy. I envy so much. But do I take? Fuck no. I just want to die sometimes, or give my life away to somebody who is dying from lupus or cancer and wants to live! Fuck, I don't want to live but if I had it all, I most certainly would. I would want to live if I experienced what you have. Didn't have a fucked up family like I do. Weren't as sensitive and melodramatic as I am. I would be glorifying life and wanting every moment to take my breath away. Sure, I smile but that's just a front my dear. After that, the rest of the day, I'll frown. Permanent frown on my face because this world and I don't get along. I am the biggest disappointment I have ever known. So please, please dear stranger, don't ever try to involve yourself with me unless you don't want me to die. Then help a lady out here. 2017 could be another year while I wait and wait, patiently, for my death. I've had enough of this world.
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