Why

Why do I always get sad so often?
Whenever, whenever I fuck up or make a mistake, proving to the world just how dumb and idiotic I can be, everybody else lashes out at me. Hey, hey, hey. Don't get carried away now. I know that I fucked up, but since it affects you greatly, it makes me want to seek solitude even more. I don't want to fuck up anyones lives anymore. And I can only do that by staying away from them. So I'll stay away from them, even if it kills me.

Because loneliness is a deadly thing sometimes. Sometimes, I just need company. But, but, I'm just tired of the world.. Oh fuck. I fucked up again and again and again. Wow... I don't even know anymore.