Respect has to be earned

You see in this world, there are many things that I have lost respect for.

So many things that I thought deserved my respect but in reality, didn't.

One of those things is the Uber and Lyft drivers of the world. Those people are looking for a lucrative way to make ends meet and put some bread on the table but honestly? Your way of going about it is just ludicrous.

Traffic will become even more immense due to you picking up fucking yuppies and kids who get tons of allowances because they're spoiled rotten. Well, those kids better pay for your gasoline money because the traffic will increase and consequently, your fuel tank will empty much faster.

I don't even take a fucking taxi, nor will I take something that costs more like a fucking Lyft driver or an Uber. I just do this really, extremely annoying thing because I for one have not driven in nearly 5 years and ask people to drive me around. I've got my lovely boyfriend for that. But still, what if he's sick, and lying in bed!? I don't have a license due to my stupid accident, so I guess I'll just walk to the nearest corner store and get the poor fella some medicine. It sucks, but that's just how I live. Don't need to waste money or gas and pollute the air even further by hiring a driver. Ah, I sound so angry and mean.

But that's who I am. This world has made me mean. But the nature of it all. The trees, the animals, and since we're living in the Bay Area, the ducks and the geese. They deserve my respect.

Not people trying to gain money by making it harder for the economy. Just walk or ride a bike. Anything more healthy for the ozone and the atmosphere.

As for anything else.. Well humans, I have zero respect for. Call me a hermit or a cat lady, but I can't stand people unless I love them undyingly. Like my roommates. Those people are allowing me to live everyday and get through the struggles of everyday life. And by people, I mean just one person and one cat. Cats are human too.

I may look ignorant and that's because I am. I don't know how to behave in front of people and I never ever ever want to hurt them or put them in harm's way, so I tend to stay away. Because I do it. I do it unintentionally. Look, if you've ever been hurt by me, just know that I didn't mean it and it makes me sad that I hurt your feelings. It makes me sad to the point of tears, hah, but enough about that.

I had to forcefully chuckle in order not to cry. People did tell me that I had no empathy, but shit makes me cry. Humans make me cry. You make me cry. Sometimes of happiness, but most times of sorrow. I'm just trying to balance it all out. Through laughter, through tears.

If I ever hurt you, please, please, let me know and I will give you my sincerest apologies. And I will never do what I did again. I'm sorry. I truly am.

But that's only if I respect you. Otherwise, you're dirt to me.