What's it like to have friends

I don't know anymore.

Don't get me wrong, I have had the opportunity of having friends. But most of them were unethical, a shame to be around, overly-sexual, or too fucking mean and it influenced me. Boy did it influence me.

And I became, an, I don't know, a bitch, because of it. I am trying so hard to be non-judgmental. I'm trying so hard to see only the good in people, but the way that I've been treated and the way that people have spoken to me with such ill remarks and foul words, I don't know if I can. If I can even see the good in anybody anymore.

I know this is going to sound bad and coming from a filthy tongue like mine, it might sound worse, but everyone has their flaws. Everyone makes mistakes, but those mistakes shouldn't hurt other people and if it does... It just makes you look like a goddamn cruelhearted, self-satisfying bastard. I know too many of those.

Way too many. It's about time we start spreading happiness and joy. It's about time we start spreading smiles instead of frowns or expressionless faces. It's about time we start spreading compassion and harmony.

Isn't that what you're looking for? Because it's going to make me spectacularly happy, of course! Peace will surround us, if we just try to be happy. Even if it's just pretend for a while, eventually that pretense will become habit, and that habit will spread throughout the globe. People will be happy, and that makes me happy.

It's simple really yet it is kind of dull, but a smile wouldn't hurt. In fact, it will help. It will motivate others to smile, even if they're having a bad day. Unless of course they're pessimistic and frowning is their talent, then never mind, but for the optimists out there, even if you got scolded for not taking out the trash or doing the dishes and it upset you because your mom slapped you across the face hard as punishment, you should smile when someone else initiates a smile. But then again, I don't want to command you of anything or tell you what to do. Your choice, your life. Do whatever makes you happy. My only command is that through your pursuit of happiness, make sure that nobody, not one soul is harmed in the process. That's it.

Goodbye now and have a good day. You deserve it.