Good company is all I need

And essentially, that's all anyone ever really needs.

And I'll tell you why. Your company reflects on who you are. You want to be a better person? Then surround yourself with good, inspirational, kind, caring people and while you're completely unawares, with a blink of an eye, you'll change. You'll become better.

However, if you surround yourself with small-minded, petty people that love to badmouth others because they have nothing else productive to do all day, then you'll end up like them. Not saying that badmouthing is productive, in fact, it's counterproductive. It's demeaning, it's also going to stab at your sense of being what most people like to refer to themselves as goodnatured. Just know that wasting time being snarky and critical of others is a goddamn waste of time and waste of energy.

There is no point to it at all. But whatever. It's all up to you. Never was my decision. Never will be. That would make me a dictator, trying to change your life? Hah. Nah sweetheart, I'm too preoccupied with trying to change mine. Look. Before the assaults and the attacks come forth, just know that I agree with whatever slander or truth that it is you would like to convey to me. I am guilty of being the most negative piece of shit in the world.

And you know what's keeping me from going overboard? This guilt, in the back of my mind, in my subconscious, repeating my mistakes to me, haunting me with memories of my past. I know I suck. I know it all. But it doesn't hurt to be reminded, so go ahead. Be contemptuous. Just know that being contemptuous towards a stranger is not very kind, especially if you don't know what that strangers been through. All the agony and pain they've dealt with.

But whatever... It's not like everyone wants what I want. And I'm beyond happy for that. I like being me. I like that I desire to be the best that I can be. The kindest, the one with empathy. The one that gives an actual shit about shit, and doesn't give a shit about trivial nonsense like the others do. So much of wanting to get their nails done, or threading their eyebrows, or whatever else with the grooming that's done to impress whoever it is we want to impress. I don't care about that. I care about kung fu, and jazz music. I care about kick boxing and self-defense. I care about food too, mm, food makes me so happy. Makes all of the dopamine or whatever the happy chemical is release from me. I don't even particularly know how that shit works, because I for one am not a genius, so excuse me. But food sure does make me happy. And I want you to be happy too.

Just make sure your happiness doesn't deplete the happiness of other people with such petty antics.