And I'll tell you why.
They expect women to wear makeup or they'll look like, hmm well I've been told that I looked like a zombie because makeup is not my forte, so I'm nearly always bare faced. And some people are just too forward.
Are zombies cute? To me, sometimes, but most of the time they look like leprechauns or goblins, so no. And do they fit into society's beauty standards? Oh, I highly doubt it, so makeup is a necessity for a women living under the guidelines of these "strict" rules, in order to enhance our beauty. But to enhance it is kind of fraudulent in a sense.
Adding makeup, brushing angles on your face with powder, that's making your face artificial. And artificial beauty never really is on the same level as authentic beauty. Beauty that can't be touched, or revamped, or intensified. But unfortunately, many people, (myself included) have deformities. I have a smaller eye due to the results of brain surgery haha. Now all I can do is laugh at it, and if you cringe and think "wow really!? I hope your beauty comes back." first of all. I just sighed an embarrassing sigh, because you are very shallow.
And sometimes, even zombies or goblins such as me can be cute no matter what anyone says because I say so and I look in the mirror for ten seconds and then I'm tired of it because of my stupid silly eyes. Silly eyes that I will never ever get surgery on to fix because surgery is fake. And fakeness is not what my lifestyle is about.
I don't want to be a Kylie Jenner beauty. Yeah, the girl is beyond breathtaking, sure, but all she does is take pictures everyday of her sexy, skimpy outfits, and it's on occasion if I ever take a picture of myself everyday. Usually, I photograph cats. Not take selfies or whatever the modern word is nowadays. Kind of dislike that term but oh well. Gotta catch up with the rest of the millennials around here. But nah, I just want to be a goddamn boy for chrissakes. You know where I'm getting at?
With the standards of beauty that society hands them, all they have to do is wake up, shower, put some goddamn deodorant on and smell fresh and clean, and they already look electrifying. I think that's unfair. Sure, makes me sound like a sexist because I kind of am! And I have every right to be! I grew up in a home where the males were first, where they were more privileged. Kind of like that badass Sun lady from that tv show Sense8, living out in Seoul, South Korea whose younger brother was spoilt rotten while she was treated like shit all because she had a vagina. So I have every right to be a sexist, but I am only this way for how I used to be treated. Now, I'm away from all that, so hopefully this sexism will disappear for a while. And it will come back with full force when someone attacks me with a sexist, snide remark.
Anyways, wow... Didn't expect this entry to be so long. But before you get carried away, especially with how random it is that I talk, and how all over the place I can get. Unorganized, that's how I convey shit, and most of the time, people misinterpret it, but the thing is this; I want to be beautiful in my own way. Keeping my beautiful yet fucked up, ugly eyes, and keeping my beautiful, natural hair on my legs. My bikini area (too much information, but fuck it, it's my blog after all hahah so...) and my silly armpits. I just think that beauty that's natural is always going to surpass beauty that's reached for through using expensive concealers and foundation. And blushes and contours. And fake eyelashes and bold eyeshadows.
You see, I'm more of a fan of the natural makeup look. If it's too enhance your natural features and you love makeup, then so be it, do your thing. You're gonna end up looking better than I ever did just looking like plain old me... A freaking zombie. (Sorry, sometimes, when words hurt, I laugh a little to make the pain go away, so while I typed down the words freaking zombie, I suppressed my laughter. Don't want people thinking I have no fucking feelings or anything and I take insults such as that as a fucking joke to laugh at. No siree. It just hurts. Ya see?)
So here's a brief conclusion to this rather long statement. I'm a lady who has been called ugly before, every fucking day by my stupid brother. (Bullies suck. They need to shut the fuck up, honestly!) but I am that lady and I think that too much makeup on your face, a weave, a wig even (unless it was necessary and you're balding like me, and yet even I don't wear a wig. I just let everyone know that I've got bald spots from my much needed brain surgery) and all of that jazz is going to contribute to a fake beauty, an artificial beauty. Not a natural one. But I must confess, I wasn't born naturally beautiful, so I will enhance my features too. Gotta look good for myself in the reflection and for my partner too. Don't want him knowing that he's dating a hobo. Because that's basically my staple look. Hobo chic. Hahah. Whatever man. This post was critical. My sister is one of those people who look so much better without all that makeup but hell, she fancies makeup, gets that shit for her birthday, and who am I to tell her how to live her life? I am not her master, I am not a higher deity or anything that will guide her through her life until she seeks and finds true happiness, especially without all that unnecessary enhancement added to her. Nah, that's not my role, but I will tell you that this is my take on society's standards of beauty. And how real beauty, through my eyes, is not artificial.
.... Oh and your character too. If you're a Kylie Jenner lookalike, and you've got a nasty attitude, you're ugly as hell, even though you've got such a pretty face.
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