Words hurt

Oh do they hurt so much. And I'm the type of person to take things to heart. I take things personally and I fucking hate that because everybody will end up thinking...

"Oh Elle? She's just a problematic child adult who thinks only of herself so that's why she thinks we're picking on her, but whatever. I'm just a goddamn bully sometimes." and you don't even know it, do you? Well yup! I'm childish. I'm shallow. Oh and guess what!? It doesn't hurt to spit out the goddamn truth. Like it hurts other people to admit to the fact that they are what they are, because they seem so goddamn oblivious to it.

But hey that's me, coming directly from yours truly. A selfish prick, who tells people what to do because I've got an Aries moon nearly turning into Taurus, (which makes sense because I am the biggest foodie I know around) and Aries people are bossy and domineering or so I've heard with a big fat ton of ego yet I have the nerve to tell you about my flaws without shame and without regret?

Damn. I don't know man. I have never been enlightened or anything but I know of what my negative traits are. Do you? Or are you too proud (like my Aries Moon) to admit to it? Hmm??

Astrology pisses me off sometimes. I've got two fire signs in my Sun and my Moon and they're both egotistical and yet I can tell you straight up what the fuck I am (negatively) without hurting said ego and my non-existent pride. So...

Yessss!!! I am selfish! Yes I believe it's okay to be selfish for a while because I have been living for people for so long, forgetting about my own well being and it sucked the life out of me. Made me depressed even more and shit so take the time out of your day and pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and put yourself together before somebody else does it, in a reckless maneuver.

Yesssss, yessss, yesss! I am a bitch! But somebody's got to be a bitch in order to tell people what's up. Keep them updated even in a harsh way, as long as it gets through their dense skulls. You've got to be harsh. You've got to perform discipline otherwise people will become fucking spoiled ass rotten privileged fucks who don't even know it at all. And doesn't that suck about people?

When they don't even know who the fuck they are? So we (the bitches and the sons of bitches) have got to point it out to them? "Hey, you're being a goddamn bitch right now," says bitch to another bitch, and that's just the way the cookie crumbles around here. I respect bitches when they are needed, not bitches who are bitches because they feel a sense of superiority to everyone else. I say fuck that shit. Those bitches can suck on a toe for all I care.

I'm also a liar. I'm a goddamn liar. But fuck that pathological, compulsive lying bullshit!!! That shit ruins peoples lives!!!! So no, I don't lie for that reason. Everybody fucking lies and don't you get into an argument with me on that because nothing, not one thing will change my mind. I lie when I need to. Not to fuck somebody else over. And not to fuck up the situation either but I'm kind of dull so that oftentimes happens. Through simple little white lies. It fucks up shit. So I'm trying to tell the truth, but too much truth can also fuck up a situation too. You know what I mean? If you don't, that's okay, I wouldn't understand it the first time around.

Oh world... Why do you have to fuck up my life so much? Oh Elle. It's mostly, no entirely your fault. Quit fucking blaming the world. You're like this because your demeanor is like this. You crave sadness for some odd fucking reason and it sucks. Makes you want to die. But don't you dare fucking die or I'll seriously kill you myself. Hah. Wouldn't that be funny huh. Whatever. Fuck!!! I just want to make sense with the world. I fucking hate it all. I fucking hate everything. Why can't anyone, anybody understand that shit?

Why can't anyone understand me? I need to die.